The Internship

“Photograph, remembering the summer….”

When you think of internship, the idea of work experience pops into mind. To me, the past few months have been so much more than just gaining work experience. I’ve met a lot of great people who taught me so much, I’ve seen people come and go, I’ve felt degraded and worthless, and I did things i’ve never done before.

To tell you the truth I wasn’t really supposed to be here. I tried out for the establishment, got interviewed, but originally got rejected. But one faithful day, I got an email saying I got reconsidered. I had no idea what kind of game fate was playing on me. After the hellish processing of the visa (which i’m still thankful that got approved) and the sudden booking of flights, it all came to me that I was leaving.

I remember that day when I bid goodbye to my family and friends. That grueling flight to get to Lake Tahoe (Manila > Hong Kong > Los Angeles > Las Vegas > Reno) and my first day at work I didn’t have any idea what to do.

I will miss the long walks every morning, when the chilly wind hits me as I listen to Mayday Parade on the way down the steep hill we use as a short cut. Believe it or not I enjoy those walks. Everyday I look forward to having some time alone walking back and forth from work.


Remember when they said you’ll meet all sorts of people in college? Well, you’ll definitely meet more at work. I was exposed to what reality is. I learned that you can’t immediately get what you want, you have to work for it. You don’t always start at your desired position, you work your way to the top. Of course, working your way to the top has its obstacles. No matter what you do there will be people trying to pull you down.

I’ve felt depressed during the first few weeks. I felt like I wasn’t good enough. I was unsure, and scared that I might not meet their expectations, but I learned to strive. I wanted to show them that I wasn’t gonna give up so easily. I tried my best to be what they never thought I could be. I started out prepping for the beach and pool. It was boring at first, then asked myself “studied french cuisine for almost three years for this?” but like what I said, you don’t start anywhere you want. One day I got to help during the fourth of July on the hot line. A few more days after that, I oftentimes got to man the beach and pool alone. I tried to be as fast as I could, making burgers and fish tacos. I loved the pressure, I wanted to be in the hotline for the rest of the summer.

I was told that they’d be transferring me to the pool. During this time, I learned not to get my hopes up too high. Turns out it was a lie and I was still stuck in prepping. I was disappointed of course, thought that I was still not good enough. Whenever I had time, I’d help out garde manger. They became my second family next to the beach and pool department. I’ve been getting motivation whenever I hear praises from my supervisors and co-workers. Those simple words can go a long way. I got transferred to LEG, the hotel’s fine dining restaurant. I got to man the pantry, which made me somewhat happy because it was definitely a notch higher than what I used to do before. Though I miss my beach and pool family eitherway, they still taught me a lot.


I’ve met a lot of great people during my stay here. Some I already considered family that the thought of not seeing them anymore really saddens me. I’ve seen people come in and leave. Most of the people i’ve met are ridiculously nice that I feel like my silence bothered them. My housemates were the only people I could be myself there, for we were the only filipinos in this so-called town. We still had our own misunderstandings, but just have to realize that everyone is different. I will miss the weekly trips to the laundromat, grocery shopping, drinking outside our patio and talking about work.

I will miss the unexpected road trips to nowhere. Blasting loud music, windows down and the wind blowing in our faces. When we drove to Emerald bay and grabbed Taco Bell along the way, when we star gazed in Mount Rose, literally lying down the road and when we went to Reno or Carson just to eat at Five Guys and watch a movie. The good stuff, it’s what we should remember.

The late night drinking games would always be a funny memory. That time we played “Asshole” (courtesy of Sean) and “King’s Cup”, that time we took vinegar shots at the fourth of July, when we stayed up until 5am just talking about life and those nights when the alcohol just penetrated our minds.


Here’s to those nights when your friends just couldn’t walk straight anymore, when the exact words are lost in a blurry slur, and to the nights that we learned our differences.

If there’s anything I could share to upcoming interns, is that you should open your eyes to reality as early as possible. There’s so many things left to find out, so don’t waste an opportunity to learn something. Make the most out of every moment you have with people that make you happy. You never know when you’ll see them again. It may take a long time or god forbid, never again.

A few more days from now, I will be back to my old life. My school life. I will be back to the same old routine, not expecting the unexpected anymore. If I could, I would repeat these moments over and over again. I rarely say this but i’ve never felt so infinitely happy and not caring about anything.

This experience is definitely a life changer. I don’t know if i’m ever gonna be the same old me when I get back home. It won’t be just a mere memory, it’s something that i’d remember and then laugh at the same time cherish the good times. It’s amazing that i’ve met people from different parts of the world, the number of firsts and the lasts, the lessons that opened my mind and the nights we felt like kings. It would most definitely not be forgotten.

Until we meet again Tahoe.

“Photograph, oh give me something to remember…”



You are what you love, not who loves you

I’m sorry for being MIA for the past few months. Summer has been crazy and I didn’t have time to write a proper blog post (more like I don’t have anything to write about anyway). I’ve been wanting to go to Fall Out Boy’s concert in San Francisco even before I started with my internship, so me and my friends planned our trip to fog city.

We stayed at the downtown part of San Francisco, Union City as they call it. Quite a scary place to stay in if you don’t know where to go. My suggestion if you ever get to this part of town is to not look so much of a tourist. As much as possible don’t keep your cameras dangling around your neck. Just look like you know the place.

We got to meet with our dear friend from school, Angela, who’s taking her internship in SF. Luckily, we had someone to show us around. I once read an article about the top 10 best burgers in america, and we got to try Super Duper Burger which runs top 3 on that list. The place was packed and the line was long so we decided to just eat at the nearby park, yes, on the ground. People were already giving us weird looks. Don’t care because we’re having the best burger of our lives.

What’s a San Francisco trip without visiting FIsherman’s wharf? Just like last year, we feasted on seafood! If you ever get yourself in Fisherman’s Wharf, you have to try clam chowder. YOU NEED TO. The clam chowder is served in a sourdough bread bowl which makes it more enjoyable to eat.

Before heading to the concert, we got to see the sea lions. I loved how foggy and gloomy that day was. Tip: If you’re walking along this area, do not carry food with you if you don’t want the seagulls to attack you lol

We arrived at the concert venue early, and the line already reached outside. I was ecstatic of course! This was Fall Out Boy. The band that saved me from the shit I’ve been through during high school. We secured a good spot by the bleachers. It was my first time watching a concert in another country, so I was somehow cautious of my actions. I still don’t know how they roll. SLRs weren’t allowed that time so I borrowed my friend’s camera. I’m sorry for the not-so-HQ photos 😦

Twenty One Pilots started off the concert, getting all people hyped up. I don’t really listen to them but after seeing them live, I might do.

Next up, Panic! At the DIsco. Now, I’ve been a fan of P!ATD for so long and I haven’t seen them live before. Brendon Urie sings beautifully live. My feelings exploded when they played “Nine In The Afternoon” because I seriously had my Pretty.Odd. phase when Ryan and Jon were still with the band. “Miss Jackson” live was also great and upbeat. Then of course, everyone sang along when they finished with “I Write Sins, Not Tragedies”.

Alas, Fall Out Boy! I was already feeling the euphoria after P!ATD performed, but the rush of excitement continued when the lights dimmed and the intro for “The Phoenix” started.

I loved it when they played “Alone Together” with pictures of unusual young couples in the background. It goes to show that no matter how different you are, love is still love.

I felt so infinitely happy that I cannot explicate my emotions further anymore. They played an acoustic set for “I’m Like a Lawyer…..” and “Grand Theft Autumn” it was magnificent.

I wanted to cry during “What A Catch, Donnie” (Yes, that’s where I got my blog name), followed by “20 Dollar Nosebleed” in which Brendon Urie showed up. You can imagine me going vdasfyegvybhasegyuahjbwvgesfhdbf because it was just like my highschool days when I listened to both of these bands and i’m now seeing them together on stage.

I’ve been also wanting to hear “Save Rock & Roll” live and it was hands down the best part of the concert. Everyone was singing along as they also show notable musicians in the background.

As always, they ended their set with “Saturday”, and it was depressing for I knew it was the last song, and I knew the fun also had to end. After the show I tried to battle my way in the merch table and I bought the tour shirt. I tried waiting for them outside the venue but I was with my friend so 😦

In summary, it was awesome going back to San Francisco, this time with friends and just exploring the city doing whatever you want. Now it’s back to reality. I still have one more month before I go back to Manila.

Title: “Save Rock & Roll”- Fall Out Boy

Lost Things We Can’t Replace

I’m currently reading Seth Baumgartner’s Love Manifesto to kill time on this boring summer. Another thing I did to ‘kill time’ is to go rummaging through my parents’ old stuff. I found casette tapes such as Air Supply and The Carpenters, but I got giddy when I saw a Beatles tape. It was really dusty and I was afraid it won’t play anymore. I tried playing it and hallelujah it still works! but the quality of course wasn’t that good anymore. I also loaded my 2nd film to my Diana though i’m still looking for a place to get my last film printed.

I also rummaged through my stuff and found old (well not so old) photos. The first one (top left) was when I met wrestler Mick Foley, next is just a random baby picture and then the two at the bottom are shots from my film camera when WWE raw came to Manila.

I also stumbled upon my diaries and journals from 2nd grade til sophomore high school. I was laughing so hard at some of my entries, I got nostalgic after that. I promise to read them to you someday in a vlog. 

I’ve been hunting for good music for weeks and found Royal Teeth and General Ghost. They are A+ bands. I listened to Royal Teeth’s “Wild” and it is a perfect summer jam. I got to check out General Ghost’s If Then EP and immediately loved it.

[cr: Royal Teeth & General Ghost]

Check them out guys!

Title: “Wild”– Royal Teeth

A Very Potter Debut

It has been a tradition here in our country to celebrate 18th birthdays. Like in the US, sweet 16 is celebrated. I went for a unique approach on celebrating my 18th. Harry Potter themed that is.

For the invitations, I tried to copy the Hogwart’s acceptance letter. If you want customized locks like this, Recto is the place for alot of choices.

For the gown, I tried to imitate Hermione’s Yule Ball Dress….

and had it in brown….

Gown by Frederick Alba of FSA atelier, Timog, Q.C.

The Photobooth’s backdrop was “Platform 9 3/4” which gave a very HP feeling on every photo. I’m glad that my friends enjoyed the photobooth. All thanks to Manhattan Photobooth 🙂

The Cupcakes were totally fab. I’m a culinary arts student but the cupcakes Made by Paire looked stunning. Man that’s hard to make.

For the giveaways, we gave wands. See those long boxes?

A party won’t be fun if there’s no alcohol, loljk. But thanks to Booze Bumps for keeping my friends happy with their Mocktails and Cocktails lol

This wouldn’t be all possible too if it weren’t for my parents 🙂 so I’m very thankful. I really didn’t want a debut but because of them I did, and if I didn’t, I’d sure be missing a lot.

(photo credits: Abigail Olaco, Clove Arellano, Photoboothrental Philippines)